Thursday, July 16, 2009

Have I lost my mind?

Do you know that song by Jonas brothers?

I make the most of all this stress
I try to live without regrets
But I'm about to break a sweat
I'm freaking out
I take the necessary steps
to get some air into my chest
I'm taking all the doctors meds
I'm still freaking out
everytime I turn around
Something's just not right
I might be paranoid...

Today I checked into facebook. I had a friend request from a name the felt "weird". I started wracking my brain. All I could come up with was I do know a Jacquie but she's married to my Dad. Which why wasn't she using HIS last name. She was so PROUD to become a Reg after all these years. I clicked on the picture. It was her,she was much younger and with someone else. And then it hit me. She was using one of her EX-husbands names or her maiden name. That I'm not sure which.
I am sure of two things: first she is the devil spawn.
I'm not trying to be funny or cute or dramatic when I say that. From the moment my dad reconnected with her; he became even MORE selfish, prideful and very very far from Christ and his healing power. She feeds his worldly greed and ego heaping spoonfuls of "they all want whats yours. You are the king and they need to respect you."
In my land: Respect is earned by good deeds and kindness.
Not because you have low self esteem and demand it from others.
She has told other people(family members and friends) that Howie's kids are worthless moochers.
I don't speak ill of her out of spite, I speak ill of her to invoke prayer. I'm not exactly sure if she just possessed or if she is a demon cloaked in human form. Whatever the case, she has some serious hooks in Howie.
And second: I do NOT want her snooping around my facebook page,especially if she's not being truthful about her name/picture/and location.
It is creepy on so many levels. I do not feel safe around her. I blocked her. Hit my knees and began praying. See, I DO have this agreement with God. If it was of HIM that I am to reconnect with Howie, it needs to happen in a certain way(s). That I will RECOGNIZE as HIM. Not coming in the form of false cover or online search. He knows where I live. He knows my phone number. He's not going to reach out through his lying wife on facebook. That I am sure of. Besides, Howie isn't even ON facebook, I've checked. Now comes the paranoid part. I told Rob about it and asked him to block her on HIS facebook. He told me he couldn't FIND her. Not with the name she used to friend me or the other names I know she's had.
WHAT the HECK is THAT??????
Now she's vanished? Whatever.
Sara had this wonderful post today about being fervent in prayer. It's time to call out my friends for a little prayer. I need protection. I want hearts softened and souls released from bondage. I want whatever has control over Jacquie to be destroyed.
She has become a home for demons and a haunt for every evil spirit
merchants of the earth grew rich from her excessive luxuries
Revelations 18:2c and 3b

The arrogant can not stand in your presence; you hate all who do wrong.
You destroy those who tell lies; bloodthirsty and deceitful men the Lord abhors.
But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
Psalm 5; 5,6 and 11

In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises.
He boasts of the cravings of his heart; he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord.
In his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
Psalm 10:2-4
They close up their callous hearts, and their mouths speak with arrogance. They have tracked me down, they now surround me, with eyes alert, to throw me down to the ground.
Psalm 17:10-11
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew from from deep waters.
Psalm 18:16

Before I had met her would would have scuffed at spiritual warfare of this nature. I knew the enemy could play with your mind. But I had never felt the presence of evil like I do with her. My spidey senses go into overdrive. So I ask you am I loosing my mind?
I feel like there is this big cosmic joke that I'm staring in...
I know that the friend request was real, I know that the information that went along with that request were NOT true. Now there seems to be no record, other then my inbox.
Did I drink too many Mike's raspberry lemonades last night? I could have sworn I only had one!


  1. Satan can work in weird ways...but one thing you now for sure, Sara, your God is victorious in ALL ways! Keep praying for your loved ones.

    that song One Day by Ayiesha Woods just came into my mind!!!

    praying along side you!

  2. I think you have to trust your senses on this one. It sounds very weird and I agree that God wouldn't try to re-connect you in this way. I'm praying too.


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